The Silent Land

I've just read this brilliant article from Bradley Burston.
http://www.haaretz.com/hasen/spages/1087783.html
I rather like the idea of Adam being a "polite, generous, fearsomely gifted deviant".
I've been reading Adam's brother's blog. It's really rather amusing. Everyone was telling him how amazing it was that he was Adam's brother. He wasn't so convinced (which one of us ever bows down in admiration to a sibling? I mean... hello?). So, anyway, he decides to test out his "association" fame and when pulled over by a cop who asks "are you..?", Neil chips in "yeah, I am, I'm Adam Lambert's brother". At which point he's arrested and breathalised cus the question would have been "are you drunk?". He tells it better than me. But it made me chuckle.
We saw the sun today. Yey. Snow on the mountains. Truely the beginning of winter. Don't go there. May? It's so seriously wrong.

This is bad, isn't it? A year without a post... Hmm. I will chastise myself quietly. As I'm fairly sure I've lost all my friends, due to my silence, no one will hear me scream anyway.
So, NZ hey? Apparently there's a conspiracy of silence about emigrating to NZ - you're not allowed to disagree with the view that it's God's Zone and all is happy la la in the land of Kiwis. So, I'll go along with the fiction, if only to avoid flames. I'm a coward, so sue me.
But onto more interesting things. Like Adam Lambert... My new obsession. If you don't know who he is, see picture. If you do, see picture anyway and lust.

I've been going over my site and finding that most of my embedded YouTube links have been disabled. Well, Adam lost American Idol and after that nothing, even having all my links disabled, can dismay me more. Sigh. Some of them are still working, so please enjoy them.
I'm still reading fanfiction, although why I bother sometimes when so much of it is CRAP I don't know. Am I writing? Well... sort of. I have started a Torchwood fic, which I'm enjoying. But, trust me, NZ is just not inspiring me to write (and that must be the BEST excuse anyone with writer's block has ever come up with - a whole country is stopping me writing). This is this most un-gay, un-slash place I've ever been - and, hey, I spent 22 years in the military, so I know of what I speak.
Sigh.
So, missing friends, missing slash, missing life, wishing I was somewhere else yet again.
I'll go back to avidly surfing for anything about Adam cus that is so much better than RL.

I'm posting this from New Zealand. We've been without the internet for over three weeks which, to be honest, has been the hardest thing of all of the emigration process (well, okay, discovering there is no central heating in NZ was a bit of a shock too ).

I shall be up and running with new vids and stories links soon.

It's six months since I last posted, but it only feels like yesterday. Time is clearly still playing tricks on me. I'm six days from leaving England forever. We fly to New Zealand next week. I've given up my job, we're moving out of our house on Friday, kids came out of school at Easter.

Gulp.

So, some welcome news was very welcome indeed - my favourite vidder is back up and running under a new name Leensvidz. Yey!

One of my main reasons for emigrating was to have some more time in my life. I have this vision of sitting watching the ocean and writing, keeping up my site and my LJ....

We have to have dreams.

So, apologies to everyone who has befriended me over the last 6 months and had no reply. It's been a crazy, crazy time.

Many thanks to trillingstar who put me onto the brilliant vidder Colleendetroit. She's an avid Oz fan, which shows in the beauty and respect of her vids. I love this one - the music is new to me (yeah, I'm one of the great music illiterates) but fits the edits perfectly. Great stuff.

Where is the time going? Does this happen to everyone? That feeling that everything is speeding up and there's no time in the day to just take a moment. I'm hardly having time to watch anything interesting, or read much. Something needs to change. Anyway... I have just finished the first season of Numb3rs. It was good. Watchable and well written but not... gripping. I didn't really feel the brother thing. Besides the fact that physically they appeared to have come from different parents, they were emotionally distant. Very much in contrast with the brothers in Prison Break who are very believable. Speaking of which, I have S3 Ep1 to watch tonight. I'm hoping for considerable hurt and comfort.

I'm reading Children of God by Mary Doria Russell, which is the sequel to her book The Sparrow about a Jesuit mission to the first discovered new-life planet. Both books are an amazing read and I highly recommend them to anyone into thoughtful novels about faith and different cultures. It's not science fiction, despite being categorised as that (nothing technical mentioned). I was intrigued by the structure of the plot - the priest Emilio Sandoz returns from the mission to the new planet broken emotionally and physically - he was found with tortured hands working as a whore. Or so the rescue mission think. What actually happened to him is slowly revealed in this quite an astonishing book. The sequel is even better. Russell is a paleontologist. The thoughtful way she creates the new species on Rakhat is fascinating.

The weather has definitely turned here now. It's Autumn. I love Autumn.

I'm back from summer leave and Autumn has already begun to show in the trees around the house. Autumn is my favourite month, despite a kind wistful melancholy which always creeps up on me when I smell the first wood smoke. I'm reading The Sparrow by Mary Doria Russell. I don't quite know what to make of it, but I'm utterly hooked by the slow reveal of horror.

Watched Master and Commander last night. Dear God, more men that so desperately need slashing.

One of the Oz vids I've posted uses this song by Evanecence. I think the lyrics are even better for this one. I like this because it shows how powerful the love between the brothers is even if you don't look for anything more.

I've learnt a new term: Petrellicest. Cute huh? This one has perfect lyrics for Peter and Nathan and she really illustrates them with her editing - cutting between scenes where the brothers are estranged to ones where they make up.

Well almost. Four and a half days to do and I'll be on official holiday where I can do nothing and not have to pretend as opposed to my unofficial holidays at work where I pretend to be doing very serious things on the computer whilst surfing Youtube. But it's productive surfing. I found a great Heroes Peter/Nathan vid today. And I almost didn't watch it because it had one of those "places you don't want to go as a fanfic writer" things about it. You know the things I mean: Mpreg, Spike feeding orphaned kittens, anything do to with marriage. It had Wings Beneath My Wings as its music. Yeah, I know, shudder time (whilst secretly humming in your head now, I bet). But this is a bit of a raunchy version I'd not heard and the Nathan/Peter relationship so fits the lyrics you just have to watch.



Milo Ventimiglia has that sort of gut-lurching beauty that catches you unawares - just a certain glance, perhaps a fall of hair and there you go... smitten. Of course, playing such a beautiful person helps. Good souls shine through and all that....

Well, to be totally honest, I haven't actually been away anywhere, but it has been too long since I've posted. I got caught up in Heroes, which was as good a way as any to avoid doing anything more useful. I've been trying to find some good Heroes vids, but no success so far. Come on vidders... great potential there. So much eye candy needing to be slashed. And Nathan and Peter, all those brotherly hugs and kisses. You just KNOW what I'm thinking.
Anyway....
This is a superb Oz vid all about Chris, how self-aware he is, how caught in a trap of his own making. It's brilliantly edited and the choice of music is perfect.

Isn't this great?




I needed to see this today. I needed an injection of soul. I'm not sure anyone could endure a job that is more incompatible to all all things gay. But endure it I do. Anyway. I'm watching 24 S6. Cyril (Scott Winters) is in it as an FBI officer. Hmm. I think Cyril had more personality. Of more gay interest, Drew Boyd (Matt Battaglia) from Queer as Folk is in it too. Remember him? He was a football star who made a homophobic comment about Emmet when Emmet was catering an engagement party. When Emmet goes back to the house to get his pay.... one of the hottest scenes in QaF occurs. But then straight men falling off that straight rail is just so damn sexy. I digress, but seeing him as an FBI agent in 24 is exciting. I keep urging him on... jump Jack, jump Jack. Even better, jump DB Woodside (Principal Wood in Buffy). Except, of course, DB is playing the President. As much as I long for it, I can't see anyone writing show where a President falls for one of his male Secret Service Agents (salivates quietly).

Is DB one of the most beautiful men in the world?



I leave you to study at leisure and decide....

I've just discovered Brothers & Sisters, having read the reviews on After Elton. Superb. I'd be hooked even without the gay content. How often do we have a series about 40-somethings? An intelligent, well-written series too. But then, to also have one brother gay, treated equally with his het siblings - that's revolutionary. He's not coming out. He's no more angst-ridden than his four brothers and sisters. He just is. Like us. Wow. Change isn't just in the air - it's here. Now.

RL continues to invade my life way too much, hence the lack of recent posting. I'm about to start my 4th new job in a year! Either I'm crap or way too good. I refuse to ponder which.

Anyway, this article is wonderful. If you're into fanfic read it:

http://www.locusmag.com/Features/2007/05/cory-doctorow-in-praise-of-fanfic.html

Isn't that a great?

And, no, I have not missed the irony that I'm reading and posting about fanfic instead of actually writing any....

This is exactly what I love to write about in the Spike/Angel relationship. Isn't this vid perfect? All the angst, all the humour, all the (almost) shagging.

I've just had this vid rec'd by an LJ friend, and she's right: one of the best Oz vids out there. You could pretty much have written these lyrics for Toby and Chris. I especially like the line "I'm pretty when I lie" just as Chris, arm around Schillinger's neck, is laughing at Toby's delusion that he loves him. The vid is full of the most wonderful editing from the opening shots of the lights going out to the end. I wish these great vidders could get employed on some of the woefully edited gay movies I watch.

Isn't this just the perfect music for T-Bag? - high energy and violent. I love the edit where Michael is lounging in his cell door and T-Bag just passes on by with that look on his face that actually says don't turn your back on me! Wonderful job. (Lots of late S2 clips for those of you in the UK who don't want to get spoilt).

The BBC have asked people with blogs and websites to show support for Alan. I guess it might help. If it does, I'm glad to do it. I've also got little Madeleine in my prayers.

This is simply breathtaking. I recognise all the clips; my head tells me it's not true, but my heart is doing a little happy dance. She makes me believe. There was one point where Jack undresses Sawyer and I had to go back and check I'd not missed that ep! Just clever editing.

Lj won't display media content? Huh? They say it's a site glitch. Anyway, I've gone back and added the required code to the vids so they can be seen. I kinda like the way they've all gone black now.

Prison Break just continues to get better. I think the writers have pulled off a neat trick keeping everyone's story line interesting, yet coherent with the whole. I've been reading Television Without Pity reviews of S2 today. I think they're being a tad harsh. Yes! I know TwoP is supposed to be harsh, but they don't like T-Bag (a woman is doing the reviews) so he gets a hard time.

I feel guilty and inadequate when I consider T-Bag. He's had his hand off twice! The second time I think we're supposed to get that he chewed it off - including the screws through the bone? I only had a sore toe and had to have three months off work. I guess I didn't have his motivation. I'm trying to resist watching too many S2 vids cus I hate spoilers. TwoP have a screaming headline for each ep review of who's dead. Thanks. Didn't need that.